Afraid, I was so happy to see that you had posted! It's been a while. I'm sure you are happy to be in your own home these days, despite the work of unpacking and setting up house.
I do hope that you find something more rewarding for you in the way of a career. Glad to see that your h is doing okay. How are the children? What about you? Are you okay?
Look forward to hearing from you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.