Oh.. and how crazy is it that H held me through most of our conversation and again this morning (when I woke up crying)? I held it together fairly well last night for a long time but when I finally lost it, he came and sat with me and held me.
How can someone care as much as he does and choose this anyway?? I guess maybe it just makes him a good guy right? Maybe that's why it hurts so bad. He cares, he can hug me and look at me and hold me, he knows me inside and out, and he STILL doesn't want me. Ouch.
So a quick question for those who read my thread and other forums.. suggestions on where I should go now for advice, support, commiserating, etc.?
We're living together but we're definitely officially not piecing anymore. Don't think we will be living together much longer either, it will just depend on finances, figuring out who's going where, all that. Separated, MLC, Surviving..?? I'm not sure what fits best.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
