I picked up D11 after work yesterday and she came over for dinner. When I took her home, I stayed for a little while talking with her Dad. Not about anything serious. Just about his new suv. He's never had a new car and although this is a 2001, it is new to him so he is excited about it. He needed something reliable as opposed to the '59 Chevy he's been driving around that he wants to restore. Now perhaps he can.

D11 got her interim this week. She had a couple of D's and a couple comments about not turning in homework. It was actually better than I thought it would be, though. She actually has an A is History. We'll see what she does between now and report cards though. I am proud of them both because I know they HAVE been working. She did not get the best start to the school year with breaking that bone in her foot. She got her cast off last week and is back in action now.

That's it. I am alone all weekend as S15 is away at ROTC bootcamp til Sunday. Next Tuesday is D11's birthday and I think her Dad is taking her to Busch Gardens Saturday so I will just be hanging out at the apartment I guess. No money, no internet, either (can no longer afford it). Even with my "raise", I am still living at poverty level and getting ready to lose more. I did go from $19,000/year to $24,000/year but it's still not paying all these bills. I don't even have credit card debt or anything like that either. Rent, regular monthly utility bills, car payment, insurance, groceries and other misc stuff that S15 seems to always need.... The most basic sh*t and I can't pay it all. My insurance is canceled as of TODAY! That automatically puts my car loan in default. I could make it if I weren't still playing catch up but reality is, I am never going to be able to get caught up. I had a fleeting thought the other day that I can get caught up when I get my taxes back after the 1st of the year but then I remembered I haven't had any taxes taken out because I need every dime! I am screwed and that realization was pretty much the end of my "hope". I am just tired of it all.