mk,

Nice story. It does show that we can all find love again. You guys are right with the fear part. Also, the hard part for me are the memories, as I've mentioned before, so vivid, so painful that I can't even write them down again. The photo albums come into my head and I just am overwhelmed by sadness. I really feel for my kids.

COG,

while the women sound appealing, we know how that road is paved. I hate to go through all the dating and everything involved with that again. The thought of having to resort to Match.com or Yahoo personals makes me want to vomit. The loss of a true family is what really rips me apart. I guess the WAS rationalizes "kids are resiliant", and to a degree they are, but I can't imagine my mom and dad showing up spearately at my graduations, or not having them as grandparents, together. I guess D's counselor has to help D17 see it as having "positives" What's she supposed to do, I guess?

I need to focus solely on me. Let her go.