Thanks for letting me journal. You know I have been happy inmy life but lately I have been reverting back to not sleeping or eating again. I started wondering why my depression came back at this time?
It kind of hit me that I was OK saying that my H was making decisions from the POV as a MLCer. That he was doing all these terrible things because of his temporary insanity, sleep deprivation, crazy environment, drinking and substance abuse, baby jealousy, sex starved, affair addiction.
Yet, now that he has a state job, sleeps at night, is out of the bar, after six months of seeing this weirdo chick every night, never sees the kids, he is now just a man out there in the world walking around with a girl half his age and acceptng her not as a mistress or fling but as a bona fide girlfriend ina bona fide relationship. Well, I am not so sure about that. That is what gets me. What do I do if he does snap out of it and falls apart? What happens if the fog does clear?
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Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
