Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Boy, that devil just never gives up. I feel pretty good and am able to tell myself, that all will be fine and H will come home just not in my time but in God's. Then something happens like I hear there seems to be trouble in paradise or I see H and OW at the game or I have to take care of something on my own for S18's graduation announcement and I start to get scared and feel alone and sad.
Why does that happen? Why can't I just trust that I am where I should be? Hope all are having a great weekend. I so broke I can't really afford to do anything but I am too depressed to get anything done here.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Hey ANM, Is there anything that you can do (which is free) that takes you outside of the house? Being in the house probably doesn't help your mood either. E.g. go for a long walk somewhere pretty - botanic garden or go to a cheap ($2 movie) cinema (which I often do). I am home tonight if you feel like calling and talking. Love, PH
Thanks for the suggestion. A friend called and I talked to her for a while and felt better. But the real change came from talking to my S32. He was released from the hospital early because he is making white blood cells faster than they anticipated and does not have to stay at home isolated from everyone. He just has to avoid large crowd and not get too tired.
Then this morning in church our sermon was from the book of James and talked about our trials and how they either bring us to God or closer to God. Our pastor said we should face our trials joyously in the sense that when we begin to work our way through them with God's help, we know that what comes after will be so very much better than our lives were before.
I left feeling that I need to finish my journey knowing that when H comes home our lives with be wonderful and we will spend the rest of days loving each other, our family, and God. It will be awesome!!
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
ANM, I am glad you felt encouraged today from the sermon. We all go through ups and downs in this journey. We're only human plus it's a pretty trying journey at the very least.
So glad that S32 is doing well and is able to be home with his family. Love, PH
