So I'm generally in a foul mood. I am afraid I will take it out on xh.
I still don't know what happened to the other driver, and I am worried about her. I am worried my insurance wasn't enough to cover all of the damages to her vehicle. (Hey, I'm a single parent...the vehicle was the minimum to be legal...)
I am also worried about leaving my little boy for a day and a half. I know he will be fine. He and xh have such a great time together! I will be driving another vehicle halfway across the country, which is the best solution (it's paid for), and I'm worried about things like how well the baby will fall asleep, how well he'll sleep without me, my milk supply, not enough milk already stored, pumping while on the road... It's not that I'm a mommy milk snob, but at this point I don't have the freezer full of milk anymore, and he never really liked formula. And, this far down the nursing road, my supply is very regulated...meaning there just isn't any extra at non-nursing times of the day.
I do wonder if this anxiety is related to aftermath of the accident. It probably is. I have to admit, I have a lot more sympathy for when xh's PTSD is triggered!
While I've always been careful to try and empathize with and not invalidate his feelings, it's been interesting to see it from his perspective, however briefly. I found the first day or two right after the accident incredibly overwhelming. I have calmed down a lot...but, still, it's a useful insight.
