I'm so sorry that you had a rough day yesterday. I hope that you will feel better soon. Patience with yourself, sweetie, best gift one can give oneself.
I do think that each of us comes to one realization in our own time. One that we sorely need to have at all times.
It isn't necessarily about us. Really. Someone doesn't "do this" to us because he is hateful or hurtful or dumb. Someone does this to help himself. The answers are too tough to grasp, so an "easy solution" is chosen.
That's all, and I think the best lesson to be learned here.
The other lessons are that there is beauty in the smallest, ugliest thing. Our loss is also our gain, clouds and silver linings, insert your cliche of choice here....
We are all special in our own ways, and each has something to show the world. Let's dig around until we know what our special gifts are.
