And how to you feel about this: Do you want to be with a man you can trust if he says it's all right to follow him into an alley filled with homeboys?
Corri hand shooting up in the back of the classroom.
I don't know about Mo... but I know I want that. I have had a glimmer of that kind of trust with one person, so at least now, I know what that feels like, rather than just imagining what it might feel like.
It is what I seek. It is nearly impossible to find. I'm not talking about blind faith. It is the knowing of "I know this person is delivering his truth. Not what he thinks it is, what he knows it is."
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There are people that simply don't trust others based on their own issues and not because of the other person.
I've recently run into this in myself... and for me, it is directly tied to my own sense of personal 'safety.' I've recently come to accept that my personal sense of safety is very skewed, and I can whazz out if something even seemingly benign comes along to trip my defense mechanisms (big shocker for lots of folks here, huh?). I'm not necessarily talking about... physical safety, tho that could be part of it... guess more along the lines of 'emotional safety.' And that doesn't really qualify in the 'vulnerable' department for me, either. Hard to explain.
Anyway... I'm heading back to the shrink to route this one out... it is most perplexing to me... I think it may be tied into years of dealing with emotional abuse and the constant, simmering anger of a passive aggressive. It's left quite a mark on me.
Uhm, sorry for the hijack Mo... just needed to vent...
