so I am sleepy and foggy today. Probably because as the week goes on, so accumulates my sleep deprivation. And I am the one depriving myself. I have a bad habit of staying up too late, doing stuff like reading online and it's been easier this week with the house to myself! Many things have.

I feel I am at a turning point. What does my spouse have up her sleeve? Is she going to recommit? If she does can she stick with it? Do I want that? Yes, but not half-heartedly. I have maintained all along that I wanted to work at this. But does SHE? What if I have misinterpreted the signs and she has decided we're done? I can live with that. Should I suggest she stay out of the house longer until she has no doubt? I don't even know if she has doubt...I presume so.

I suspect she intended to meet with her counselor today and then talk to me. Small wrench in the works: Seems counselor is out of town and not available. OOPS! So when will the communication come? Nothing like the unknown to perk ya right up.

I have a shovel and I'm not afraid to use it.
Stubby