Wasn't following your story that much but just skipped through your posts. You have certainly been a trooper for several years. I am sure you never saw yourself as part of your H's mlc in the first place, or surviving it at times. But you seem to be doing just that and it should give you a lot of hope for the future.
If what you have been through didn't kill you, you can do anything. Now you just need to get settled in the new house and create some routine there. I hope you will find work that is both satisfying and rewarding to you. You have earned it. Good luck and keep updating.
