My Journey Begins...New here

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Ok....I am hoping some you will chime in here and help me out. Maybe a 2x4 or two might be needed.

Yesterday, I helped my Mom with some stuff and then went home. Ex came over after grabbing some things from her appartment and then we went to eat after she got there. So far so good...

Had a good meal...when we were getting ready to leave, I mentioned that an old friend of ours was in town and that some people were getting together for a drink before she goes back home. Asked the ex if she wanted to go and then called Mom to see if she would watch the kids for a bit. So far so good...

Well, we get home to wait for my Mom and Son proceeds to have a major blowup. He has homework to do and persisted that he needed help with it and is throwing a huge fit. During this huge fit, he said that he was confused. He did not elaborate but he did not want Mom and I to go to meet our friends. We did and he was fine afterwards, but I feel really guilty right now.

Argh.....I am the one who is confused right now!!!

The ex has been staying at the house and sleeping in the same bed as me all week despite her saying at the beginning that she wasn't going to for at least a month. There is no intimacy and I am the only one who initiates kisses (which are more welcome home or goodnight types) or closeness. She is not a very communicative person and this was part of the issue of the past. However, at this point, I am afraid to push too hard for anything but it also drives me nuts not knowing what her feelings are about how things are going. I try looking for visual clues, but don't see anything blatently there either.

This post probably makes no sense...