The Good, the Bad, and the Funny Part 5

[mkultra]

Journaling:
In my attempt to Go Dark I have arranged a schedule where I do not have to interact with my H. I mentioned that he is now tweaking it so I may be in the same place as him. Why? I do not know but it causes me a lot of anxiety.

Again, he calls almost perturbed that my bro is not home for the drop off at 7PM. H is there at 6:50 and S2 is asleep. So? Why call me to complain? He starts to try to talk to me on the phone. No. Cannot talk right now. Got stuff to do. H gets more perturbed. H starts acting like he is just goingto come to my house immediatley!! I say that is OK, I will be right there at my Bro's!

I lie. Bro shows up on the dot 7PM. I avoid going to the bro's and take D6 to neighbor's. I wait 20 minutes-30 minutes. H is still at my bro's? Bro is hating my H at this point but Acts As If and talks sports, kids, etc. I am POed when I drive up and see H's car still there? Geez. When I walk in, I notice H is actually playing with our neice and nephews like the olden days when he was their favorite Uncle.

I get anxious. Cannot look at him. H still hangs around but I stay next to my Bro the whole time until H finally leaves. H acts like he will put S2 in car seat. Waits for me to walk out with him?? What? heck no. I do not budge from my Bro's side. H finally takes the hint and leaves. Geez.

I check my mobile and notice the number of calls from H=25 ! That means H has called 6-8 x per day and left 16 voicemails. I usually erase them daily but I did not even notice the amount.

I am waiting for the othershoe to drop and I must stay dark. If this pattern continues then he is nicest before really bad news, always.