Is it time to cut him off?

[Trixi]

Things are getting worse and I am not in my right mind...or am I?

Tonight was our group salsa lesson and we met for dinner first.

At dinner I said that I was going to show homes this weekend and asked which day would work better. He said that he was busy Friday night and maybe Saturday, so I should do it Sunday. I said that if he was busy Saturday, shouldn't I show homes on Saturday? he started getting agitated and annoyed. He just wasn't sure what he was doing this weekend. He really wanted to work on the garage (maybe I could help him) and he just *never* got around to it because he's just so busy. To which I smartly said "then why are you planning on being 'busy' all weekend?" and he responded with a "hmm. good question." He was being a butt and I finally said "You're being a heiney" and he agreed. Said he was grumpy. Fine. Whatever.

Go to class. it was fine. probably only danced with him for 5 minutes.
After class go to my car to get his text book.
We start talking about this weekend. Then the coup de grace-- he says "I'm just jamming on Friday night and I might go out Saturday night. Then I will come by Sunday. I haven't finalized my plans." That capped it for me. I said "Have you forgotten what I said? I said that *if* you dated and courted me we could have sex. You going jamming on Friday night and then out to a bar Saturday night so some 21 year old can hit on you, is NOT courting me. This is turning into to nothing but bootycall and I'm not having it. I don't like how this is going at all!!"

He smiled and said "okay. Good for you for sticking up for yourself. Now's not a good time to talk [out in the parking lot], I'll give you a call tomorrow." And he gave me a kiss on the cheek.

F'er. I have only brushed on the highlights; but bottom line I felt that he was being dismissive and I am starting to feel used. I am ready to go and buy a house (or maybe lease to own). We're not getting anywhere. He is being cake eater. For God's sake-- how can I accept that "So far" we are dating exclusively???!

My IC said that while he may not be *actively* looking to date someone else, it is obvious that he is open to it and that I am not open to it and I am letting myself be strung along until he finds someone that he thinks he's in love with. And you know what, *that* is the reality. He has told me repeatedly that he is 'taking things one day at a time' and 'is open to new experiences/whatever the universe has for him'. And he won't commit to dating me exclusively, well duh! What do I need? An anvil to fall on my head?

God I feel so stupid. And tired of this. He was such a jerk tonight. This is how he would treat me back when he would stay out until 4am- he just didn't care.

I have a few days left to cancel the package of dance lessons and I am thinking that maybe I should. Okay, see, I am not in my right mind-- I am being reactive-- I just think that maybe the writing is on the wall that he is WAY more open to dating other people (compared to when he first came back and wanted to date me) and I am an idiot if I think we can continue this farce for another 8 weeks.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH