lwb, I have a fantasy where h is locked in a room with her. lol. actually, my real fantasy is that he has a therapist someday just like her. she is awesome. always has been, have known her since we were 14. in fact, anyone looking for a therapist in florida, I've got a great one for you. its kind of nice that she is my friend, because she plays both parts for me...she's not my therapist and doesn't pretend to be, so she says things very differently than if she were...she says things she never would if she were a therapist. but still she has the background/experience of one, so she has a lot to offer. she has been a godsend thru all of this. I should post one of my favorite e-mails from her from early on...its really awesome. in fact, maybe I will, since it may help some of you in similar situations.
had a ton of fun with the kids today...we did our boo gifts and snuck them out. nothing cuter than my 5 year old sneaking them up to his friends' doorsteps. really, really cute. he looks like an abbot and costello routine. came home, made cookies, goofed around, sort of straightened the house but really didn't do the cleaning I needed to...and didn't care.
survived tonight. had a lame w/o at the gym after H got here, ended up coming home a bit early while the kids were still up. H was really cool, actually...completely respected my wishes about not talking to me except for kid stuff/pleasantries. everything else was via e-mail (today he e-mailed me to say he can go to the sox game on saturday instead of friday, did I mind if his mom watched the kids, very cool of him to do, happy about that. bitter that he gets to go to the game and I don't, but happy about how he handled it).
he took the oprah tape. mk, was hoping you'd swing on to give me the lowdown, donna saw part of it but I know you saw it all. I decided if it helps him leave, well, so be it. I'm just hoping it helps him talk to his kids/deal with his kids/makes him understand this will affect them some if we do divorce. they will be okay, I think that is a big part of the message, but it will affect them.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
