What is reasonable and what is not?

[Startingover2]

What is wrong with me? I am being so distant towards him, but inside I want him to see this and fix it. Fix my untrust. Fix my insecurity.

He was just here and helped me move something heavy that I couldn't. He came in and it was rather akward. I am crying on the inside for attention and love. But on the outside I am being cold.

He was flipping through an ad that came in the paper and made a comment..."I need to get a crock pot". Inside I wanted to yell...."I have a crock pot you idiot. Why would you get your own if you are going to move here some day?"

I don't feel loved like I did a week or so ago. He is very casual about whether we spend time together. He has his kids the next few days and probably will be doing his own thing with them.

I am so down right now. All I got when he left was a hug and a "I will talk to you later".

I wonder if I am just spinning my wheels.