Well I am back. It was the best trip I have ever had. I thought about H but only temporarily since S had us so busy and we were having so much fun. I really enjoyed this past week with it just being the two of us. And when we first got there he looks at me and says "Mommy we are amazing". He said that the whole week everytime we found where we were trying to get (got lost a couple of times) and when we found our way back. He is such a great kid. I was surprised how much I was able to not think about any of it until the night before we came back. So here is the latest on the situation because you know as soon as I landed yesterday I was right back where I had left off.
So Monday night he came over to see our S finally and gave me the rest of the money he owed me for the past week. He was aggitated I could tell and wanted to know why I was going alone. "Hello you were suppose to go with us" I felt like saying and did not. I just said who would I have gotten to go with us. And I left it at that. He was nice but I could tell he did not want us to go and was worried but he made his choice. Anyway he left after an hour and said he would call me (obviously since I have no number for you).
So we got to Florida on Tuesday and he left a message on my cell that morning but I was on the plane so my phone was off. I sent a message to him at work via my phone. He called at 11:10 pm that night (he works third shift so he was up and at work) and then again at 6:30 am and I was sleeping both times and never heard my phone in the other room. Anyway he said how worried he was etc etc so I stayed up Wednesday night to call him. We talked for about 15 minutes about the day our S and I had at the Animal Kingdom and he was grateful that I stayed up so he would not be worried. I asked him how come he did not call the house number since I had sent him all the information on our house, along with the realtor info and the flight info. He said he did not want to call and have to get connected especially since he did not know the room number since I had left that off. I told him like I had every other time he has asked I did not cancel the house and then book a hotel. I was in the same house that the two of us had booked together in May. That was the end of that. I think that he thought I cancelled the trip and then re-did it all since he had not come home yet. Just my thinking though. Anyway he asked if he could call in the morning to talk to our S so I said to call about 7:30 he should be up by then but we would be leaving for the day around 8:30 and would not be back until that night. So he said he would call and he did not. I am just glad I did not tell our S he was suppose to call.
So he did not call until Sunday night. We were in the pool and our S would not get out to talk to him so I put H on speakerphone to talk. Our S told him all about our trip etc and I did too. We talked for about 20 minutes. At the end he told S that he loved him and missed him then he goes "I will see you on Tuesday Hon" to me. Well I think I am imagining things until our S goes "Why does Daddy think you are the son" so he heard it too. I let it go then but now it is all I think about.
So now to last night we are home and H comes to visit. He is very nice etc. We give him his T-shirt that we got him and he looks at me and says "Thanx Hon" so there it is again. He has not said anything like that to me in over 7 weeks. Could it just be a slip? But why after all this time.
So my parents were over as well last night and my Mom said he was just staring at me with this look of wonder like he was trying to figure me out our something. What could that mean?
Also our S ended up leaving with my parents so we were all alone for 20 minutes before he left. I thought he would leave right after but he did not. We sat and chatted and it was awkward and I think he wanted to talk but I did not bring up anything at all. I just chit chatted away. I promised not to bring things up so it is all up to him. I am so proud of myself for that.
Sorry this is so long and for all the questions but it has been over a week and now that I am back that is all I am thinking about. Any ideas on the following:
Why is he suddenly calling me "Hon" again? Why was he looking at me that way? Do you think he wants to talk and just got scared? Could he think I have moved on?
