Not sure if I know what to say. I think if you are going to comment you should at least read the entire post. But since you read the high points like me I will make it simple.
I am a physical person. She is a blend of heart felt gifts and quality time. As is typical we did not meet each others needs. Neither one of us were communicating.
She had a EA with some physical qualities. I did the fast forgive. Waited for her to come to me. I thought she should. NFC disease was setting in. This cycle repeated. Chesseless Tunnels and NFC disease took its toll.
Wife wants out. Wife can't leave because of money. We stay in same house. I pressure and talk about R we do more of the same. I back off it is not working. She tells me she will back off "friend" She does not. "Friend" always seems to be in my face no matter what I do. I back off some more. I can tell she is thinking I am mad. I tell her I am not mad just trying to give her space. She tells me to leave. I do. Living at mom and dads. Still paying all bills.
What I was saying in the post about where it came from was things seemed to be getting better then all of a sudden you gotta go. I am fully aware and have posted as much my contribution to this marriage failing. I know what I need to give my wife now. She no longer wants it.
Now on to today...
I was supposed to have both kids tonight as Tues and Thurs she works. I come to our home get the kids together for the night and wait for her to come home. My D13 of course has a busy schedule and I end up with just my son. As soon as I see him I can tell the difference in him. My son is just like me. I can see his thoughts. He is distant and talking in noises which is a pretty good sign he has had no attention. Its been 2 days!! My wife has a hard time controlling him. I could tell he was tired and had been staying up late. See people like me need a routine almost. Kinda like Rain man just not to that extent. My son is off his routine. My daughter came home from her busy night late which was ok I am willing to let her slide a little. She was asking what I was doing tomorrow so I know she wanted to be here but you know boys are a little more important right now. I feel so bad for them. It hurts me to think they are missing something they want. Again it has only been 2 days. I hope to be able to overcome this or maybe the new routine will settle on them. Has anyone else in this situation seen this? This is all new to me. I learn pretty quick but this is kinda scary. I am gonna take them to the beach this weekend. Hopefully that will build a little hope in them.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
