wow..thanks Downnotout...talk about pumping somebody up. I'm sure I'm looking into every negative and every possible positive I see. I do need to chill out, though easier said than done. We are still in the same house and I am very sensitive to every move, thing she says, it goes on and on.
I knew it would be pursuing. Am glad she 'let' me do it. She could have kicked me right out of there. She tried to act like she didnt really want it but opened up to me being next to her. It was a risk, but I'm glad I did it. I weighed out the consequences of her pulling way back this week, but I figured we wouldnt see each other much in the next two weeks, so I thought it would be a good sendoff. I went in to talk to her this morning because she took the garbage out. She has a real problem of not allowing me to help her, even though she has complained about me not helping enough. It happened last night when she had her hands full, but wouldnt let me help her out. So, I told her that I'd like for her to allow me to help her out. She said, 'I do'...sounds kind of like me...but I said I just wish she'd be more open and allowing of me to help out more. Thats all I want to talk about and walked away. However, at the beginning of the conversation she said, "I dont want you coming into my room anymore at night"..o.k...I could have brought up how much I thought she enjoyed it, or how much I enjoyed listening to her enjoy it, but I didnt. I went right into the 'help' subject and then left.
We have counseling tonight and I will try to defer the talk on separation as best I can. Plan is to say we wont be seeing much of each other for two weeks anyway, this is moving very fast, and I need time to digest this a bit. Something along those lines. I will also promise to leave her alone at home...
