Not been on the boards for a couple of weeks and even though i have missed it in one way, it has done me good . I have been able to stand back from my situation and look at the reality of everything and boy it opened my eyes. For the last nearly 14 months i have been living in what seems a fantasy world where nothing seems real, does anyone understand what i mean?, I have come to a point in all of this where i feel that i have let go. 2 weeks ago my husband told me he was so sure of his life and that he was happy and have taken him at his word, i have now accepted the fact that he is with OW with no signs of anything changing.
However things are changing for me , i have a completley new out look on life, my husband has not yet signed the divorce papers but somehow i no longer live in hope that this means something. Also my husband came on Saturday and was heavily flirting which included him layed on top of me kissing me passionatley on the lips and rubbing himself up against me but again i no longer expect anything from this. Friday night my husband text me at 2.45 in the morning, asking a flirty question, i didn't get until next morning because i did not hear my phone but again i no longer read into this.
The reason i know longer read into things is because i was cycling with my emotions all of the time and i just couldn,t do it anymore. I was right though because sure enough after the flirting on Saturday my husband has withdrawn again, this is pretty much how its been since the bomb. I now want more than crumbs, i want the fairytale of romance ;), i think i am now all grown up .
The one thing i am finding hard to cope with is the way all this has affected D3, she is such an angel and does not deserve any of this. I do think that maybe one day it will do her good to have a man about the house again. Even though i cope perfectly fine on my own, i think it will do me good to have a man about the house again as well. So at least i have got to the point of realising that my husband may very well never come back but i w will be open to the idea of possibly having a new relationship.
Overall i feel it has been a productive couple of weeks, in the fact that even though i still love my husband, i can now truly see D3 and i, having a wonderful life , with or without my husband.
Hope everyone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
. I have been able to stand back from my situation and look at the reality of everything and boy it opened my eyes. For the last nearly 14 months i have been living in what seems a fantasy world where nothing seems real, does anyone understand what i mean?, I have come to a point in all of this where i feel that i have let go. 2 weeks ago my husband told me he was so sure of his life and that he was happy and have taken him at his word, i have now accepted the fact that he is with OW with no signs of anything changing.
but again i no longer expect anything from this. Friday night my husband text me at 2.45 in the morning, asking a flirty question, i didn't get until next morning because i did not hear my phone but again i no longer read into this. 