I really don't know for sure if he will even go on this trip. He has mentioned before about going to Omaha and never went. He did not say when he was going. Well he said he thought about last night but then stayed to go to N13's volleyball game. He called this morning and said he was going to CR to get oil and groceries and stuff. The oil so he could change oil in our vehicles. That may to be so he could go.
I do not have a way to know if she is going or not. I know that she will not go to Omaha as BIL lives there and that is where H will stay. What I fear is last time he went out there he dissapeared for 24+ hrs and said he stayed in DesMoines. OW's mother lives there and OW stays with her like Thurs and Fridays. So if he goes it's a good possibilty that they will be together some of the time he is gone. Who knows.
I am really trying to convince myself to think positive thoughts, that maybe this job change and maybe a move is just to get away from both me and OW so that he can then clear his head.
If only there was a way to know what is or has been going on with them.
I have decided not to say anything to H yet. I know that it would not be good. I don't believe anything he tells me so what is the point? I just know that the uncertainty just about kills me sometimes.
As for wanting to be with someone that doesn't want me - HELL NO!!
But! If I really believed that to be true I probably would have ran a long time ago. So here I stand.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
