I asked my H to move out in April after a series of odd events that I still have not puzzle pieced together. Like most of you our imaginations could be our worst enemy but so can be denial. My H seemed to be experiencing a classic MLC and guilt from an ongoing affair. A few days after asking him for a divorce I regretted it and began divorce busting. There is nothing really unique about my sitch. It has been cliche except for one factor. My mother and my H ran a nightclub business together so I got all the torrid details of my H's behavior on a nightly basis. Today is the six month anniversary of the day I asked him for a divorce. I feel like time is up but I still have not filed. I have all the paperwork ready to go and I just cannot think of one miracle that will make me rebuild trust with such a deceitful man.
So The GOOD- I am healthy, in my home, with my kids every day and night. I have two part time jobs so my mortgage, health care, food and gas are covered even without child support.
The BAD- I feel like it is true that they come out of the FOG after six months. MY H is caling me a lot and finding excuses to see me and now he is acting as if. But I feel like it is too late for me now that I have moved on. I also believe he is addicted to his affair because it provides him a place to crash ( homeless), a sympathetic ear-(no one else sees him), and in a disgusting way- someone to take care of because he felt like an ineefectualparent before. These arethe BAD reasons why I cannot see me trusting him. His deceit is now reaching complusive levels.
The FUNNY- I think it is funny that I am owning my age more now. I feel proud of my accomplishments while my H has regressed into replay MLC and he dresses like a total 19 year old emo freak on the street. A grown man in a tight half shirt and painted on jeans with high heeled boots is pretty funny.
Last edited by mkultra; 10/09/0705:14 PM.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
