I'm not standing for my marriage anymore. I am not finding it possible to stand in the gap for my husband either. I am trying to get my head around the idea that all really was lost and it is time for me to move on now. It's not easy because I remember when things were good and we weren't adversaries. But that was back when I was naive and I did not see things like I see them now. He is an active (albeit functioning) alcoholic. I do not trust him anymore. I worry about him putting D11 in the truck. He has no discretion whatsoever. Not regarding the things he says in front of her, or as far as establishing boundaries, making her responsible, etc...The final straw, the eye-opener, occured a few nights ago. He told me hatefully that HE is raising her...blah, blah, blah....I snapped and told him how dare he say that to me! He's had her for 9 months and I raised her FOR TEN YEARS. Something just turned off in me. I hate him for turning her into his enabler. I hate him for being a coward. I hate him because he is turning her into the person that I used to be. One that has no idea how to take care of herself, no sense of responsibility or self-discipline, oblivious to real life.
This will only get worse from here and there are no miracles coming.
I see no reason to let it play out on this board, though, so I do not plan to post anymore.
Thanks for being my friend, L-n-F. I appreciate it.
