ok..snuck into bed w my wife late last night. performed a lttle magic that I think she enjoyed. sounded like it if you get my drift. however it was all for her as she showed no interest in me, no touching etc. afterward she said ahe wasn't sure that was a good idea because "it will just make it harder on you". I replied, "if it gets to that point, it will be hard on me anyway, but maybe this will help make it harder for you to get there"...I hated it after I said it. I'm sure I screwed up a good opportunity to DB there. but, I really wanted to ask "what is IT?"
I ended all this w a quick hug/kiss, wished her a happy bday and went back to bed.
I'm sure today she will try to distance herself again from me letting mme know that last night meant nothing.
I thought it was agood opportunity to get a little "close" time with her. I hope its not a big backslide. Positive I guess is she did let me touch her. she could have asked me to leave. though the 'it will be harder on me' comment is tough. I will do my best to let that slide off my back.
