LOL sorry Littlebitlost. She has had multiple EA. I assume there have been physical ones. Where is the line? She is definately involved in an EA at this point. Says he is just a "friend". Ok with me so far.
I know what you were saying as far as missing her.. Walk with me a little bit. You left your husband was holding a sign. You know what it said. In you making him miss you, what did it do? It allowed him to "spin" his thoughts. It left him unwilling to just jump back in when you were ready. Just as you were not ready to jump back in when he was.
What do I have to be angry about? I am not angry. I am tired (from not sleeping). I am hungry (from not eating). I am just tired of riding the adreneline (sp?) and nicotine.
We are not at the same place. There have been shining moments over the past 3 months. And as I said I have NFC what brought this on. I will say it right now. She was hiding the OM/EA while we were living together. Now she is just lying about it. I don't need to snoop. I know it in how she acts.
I will push through. I knew when the seperation occured I would have to shut down for a while. That is what I am doing. I really am not sure if I care wether it lasts or not. Why should I in the end it was her choice.
Yes she has committment issues. She has never followed thru on anything. Her job. Telling the kids you will do X or X will happen. X happens and no follow up. X just keeps happening. She is following a pattern. No question about that. She is walking down cheeseless tunnels. So was I. Look what it took to get my attention. I am just a DAM and can't think beyond my nose. Whats it gonna take for her to get bombed?
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
