I know that there is nothing I can do to "control" what H is doing or going to do. I know that there is nothing I can say.
But is there any insight as to what may be going on here?
This past two weeks have been different. H is different. He can actually look me in the eyes again. (sometimes) He jokes with me almost in ways that he used to. He even kind of flirts with me. He seems to be reaching out to girls a little. He has been around alot more (could be for field work too).
I know I am torturing myself but I can't help it. I also know that I need to let him go. What will be will be. I just can't stand the not knowing what's coming. Bad I know.
Maybe I just need to vent.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
