We talked some this evening.

-Telling me a ridiculously low amount of CS for D1.5, from his friend the attorney who would jointly represent us. Um, no. But I said nothing. Said it was his deal and what he wants.

-H feels he has "zero doubts" about OW. I think every relationship has some doubts or you don't understand the gravity of what you are doing.

-I told him that you can throw away an old pair of pants and get a new pair but the new pair gets old, too. I was able to say this with a smile.

-Agreed w/him that I don't want to go back to where we were and certain fights were a problem. Said I felt a good relationship was built on equality and respect. Also told him I noticed that he was very angry and I didn't know what to do. H thinks this response should just come naturally if you are to be w/someone long term. Um, yes.

-H is going to the mediator only for me.

-Also pointed out that I am in a stage of life where yes, I need to have more responsibility. I have a little one to take care of and life is not as easy as it is to be single. That's life.

-Said he had pathos for me again and said again he wants to be friends. (Yes, so long as it doesn't interfere with his fun.)

-I pointed out that this was the first real conversation we had had for a long time.

I was able to stay positive and he said somehting like "We will talk more tomorrow."

In a moment of anger a few days ago, he said that he would get custody of beautiful D1.5. I don't believe he wants full custody as that will ruin the fantasy life he has built for himself, but it has me so worried that I need to see an attorney as well. I don't think it is realistic that he would get primary or full custody of D1.5, but I am having trouble sleeping, worrying about the possibility.


M: 16 years
Bomb 4/07
OW 20s long gone
Divorced 11/09
I remarried New Guy
Cooperative r w/X regarding D