Seeing my girls hurt is killing me. If not for them, I'd feel well and truly detached. I don't know if my W has the caring, understanding, empathy, energy, emotional honesty and carnal desire that I need in a R. I think so, but I'm not 100% positive.

Puddle, I don't want to stay together for the girls, but, right now, while I do still love my W, I think it's worth trying FOR the girls.

All that other stuff was kindof jumbled and out of order.

Yeah, I know, stop. Hard to do when your six year old hides from you rather than leaping into your arms like she used to.

I kindof expected one or the other of them to act like that. Expectations have no bearing on the reality of having your heart lurch every time it happens though.

Anyway.

My latest

Me: 36
W: 35
2 D: 9 and 5
T: 16 years
M: 12
10/4/06: Bomb
10/5/06: Ended A
4/22/07: ILYBNILWY

I'm a beautiful butterfly.