p42, I am in the same boat you are in, and in fact I thought I was reading MY sitch a few times...it sucks and there's a great deal of hurt to be had. Time will heal you, and letting go. Before you met your ex you were okay; you'll get through this.
Leave her alone...no contact unless it's a dire emergency with the kids. My ex has one of my cell phone #'s; I changed my landline to an unlisted # and changed my email address...my ex has neither one.
Go to the gym, get new clothes, swear off booze, get a haircut, and start smiling at pretty girls at the mall. Life's too short to sit by the phone and wait for Suzy Two-Timer to have an epiphany...go get laid.
Me - 46 She - 36 Daughter - 10 Married 10 yrs 1st Bomb Date 12/17/06 (Merry Christmas!) D Bomb in January (Happy New Year!) Every other week custody of D10 She has OM who helped her walk away Divorced 07/05/07