Now I've done it.... again #4?

[nephartiti]

Take all your compliments back because I have blown my progress to Hell.

Stupid me looked at the bank account. It always gets me into trouble. Today there was a charge for bangbrosco. I had no idea what this could be. I googled it and it appears to be porn. I cannot tel you how much this sickened me. I know porn is a guy thing, but not my H. I had a huge porn problem with S9's dad and that was one thing that solidified things for me with my H--NO PORN. I still can't believe it.

Well, I flipped. Sorry. I left a v-mail breaking all the rules

"UM, yeah. Next time you order porn, use her card. How dare you. You make me sick"

That was a couple of hours ago, right before going to pick up S9. I know I should have just let it go. I just couldn't. I still feel like throwing up.

I don't know this man anymore. I'm not sure I want to know this new version.

Some Tori is in order

"Strange
Thought I knew you well
Thought I had read the sky
Thought I had read a change in your eyes
so strange
Woke up to a world
that I am not a part
except when I can play it's stranger

After all what were you
really looking for
and I wonder
when will I learn
Blue isn't red
everybody knows this
and I wonder
when will I learn
when will I learn
guess I was in
Deeper than I thought I was
if I have enough love
for the both of us

"just stay"
you said
"we'll build a nest"
so I left my
life
tried on your friends
tried on your opinions
So when the bridges froze
and you did not come home
I put our snowflake under a microscope

After all
what was I
really looking for
and I wonder
when will I learn
Maybe my wish
knew better than I did
and I wonder
when will I learn
when will I learn
guess I was in
deeper than I thought I was
if I have enough love
for the both of us

so strange
now I'm finally in
the Party has begun
it's not like I can't feel you still
but strange
what I will leave behind
you call me one more time
but now I must be leaving" (Strange)

Not very DB, I know, but it's nephartiti right now.