HELP! In a panic and I need advice FAST! Please!

[theotherhalf]

H just left here. He was in a very good playful mood with a dark cloud over head.

He said he was taking the rest of the week off. Doesn't have to go back to work till Monday night. (Oh God! Kick in my gut! Is he going off with her) Going to look for a different job. Needs to get out of there (his work). Said he may go to Omaha. Or apply at a place in town. Doesn't know. Just knows he wants out of there.

I was very controlled. Listened to him. Said don't blame you, understand. Inside I was a freaken mess. Wanted to scream at him. Are you going off with her!? I know that you are still seeing her!?! What about us?!? Are you going to file for D? How am I going to pay for this place if you quit your job and move away?!?

He even asked me if I could get insurance through my work. I just said I'll do what I have to do.

I did ask if he wants to keep farming. He said he doesn't know.

As soon as he left. I called his mom. She said I did good not saying anything about OW. Just keep your cool she said. Could be a good thing. Maybe he is mostly wanting out of there to get away from OW. Maybe wouldn't be so bad to move to Omaha for awhile to clear his head. Just hang in there.

What do you all think I should do. Do I just sit back and wait to see what happens? If he goes to Omaha at least I'll know that as BIL will tell me. If not then I won't have any idea where he is going. I am so afraid he is getting ready to bolt. I guess though logically he has crops to get out still so it wouldn't be imediately.

I'm about to blow a gasket. I am petrified! But I on the same hand I feel maybe some excitement that mabey MIL is right and he is trying to get away from OW. God I wish I had an insight to whether they are still in contact. Wish someone would let me out of the closet.