Lady, I am truly sorry for what's happened and all the things that your H said to you. I'm sure there are a lot of us that are wondering if our H's took lessons from the same instructor on how to be incredibly hurtful and how to verbally throw punches.
I feel like my H wishes he had a do over in life too. And if he did, he certainly wouldn't have chosen a wife & child. Although, he made those choices, he feels entitled to think he shouldn't have the obligations anymore. BLAH!! Makes me sick to my stomach. He once told me that I could be a good wife & a good mother, but not both at the same time. That killed me! I was struggling through being a fairly new mom (leaky breasts, still flabby body...), having just moved to a new state, being the main breadwinner, not seeing him because of our schedules.....etc. I know I wasn't perfect, but it all got dumped on me.
I don't understand how your H can cry on the phone to you about how he feels and about doing what he's done, yet push away from you and your life even more. Why the hell can't we just pray a prayer or smack them upside the head and knock some sense into them to make it all right?
I like'd your email. You're a strong, strong lady. I'm truly sorry that this is all happening to you, especially around your anniversary. Mine was in Sept......no acknowledgment from H whatsoever.
Take care-
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day