have been running around all afternoon...bought D3 "ruby slippers" which go nicely with her snow white costume, but can be used to play dorothy when she dresses up. she is in awe of them. they are cheapo target ones and I just know she thinks they are really and truly ruby slippers. I think she actually gasped. ahhh, 3. its such an awesome age.
I finished up the halloween shopping (some stuff was missing in costumes H was going to buy so he didn't end up getting anything yesterday), then went into the bookstore and bought myself the book for the Jane Austen Book Club, as well as Persuasion (the only austen I haven't read...and one that I should read now, apparently. sounds like 19th century db-ing. lol). so now I have 3 books that I can read to go along with the 5 self help ones...nice to be able to take breaks from all the crap.
donna, definitely going dark. hard because I want to forget this all happened and call him and rave about how cute S5 looks in his costume. but I'm not going to. nope. he'll see it when he comes by later.
I'm not going to be hostile to him, but I am going to be removed/dark from him.
and I am going to do some serious work on myself tomorrow in therapy. going to make it about me, not about him. action instead of reaction.
not much else to tell. I have a chicken in the oven, so the kids are getting a good dinner tonight. I'm feeling okay. not going to let him get me down, just sad that it seems to be heading that way. and confused that he still seems to be fighting divorce. weird, that. but no use trying to figure it out.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
