hmmmmm...did I make my point by posting that 3 times? Computer error, or operator error...
Spouse called to ask if she could take D shopping when she gets off work. I don't think we'll be home as D and I are going with friends to a festival. Then spouse wanted to know if I wanted to go to class tonight and she would keep D...uh, no I think I'll go tomorrow night (when YOU go and can't keep D) I don't want to be mean or anything but if she's trying to see what it's like NOT to live with us she needs to get a real dose...I am also wondering what it would feel like if she said "I've decided to leave". My mind says that to feel those feelings now might make them not so overwhelming if they do have to come up in reality. That sounds crazy even as I write it. Anybody else ever feel that way? After so much work and perserverance and being just plain STUBBORN I hate the thought that this might get shredded anyway. A friend told me yesterday that nothing I've done will ever be in vain because I will always be able to say I tried everything. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for the love Jules. I've been thinking about calling you but, believe it or not I'm a little shy. And maybe I'm afraid I'll cry and fall apart because you know what this is like. And now I'm having my morning tears...another great day begins.
Go Rockybacks!
I have a shovel and I'm not afraid to use it. Stubby
