There and Back, #8

[mkultra]

Morgan, If you are ready for Neph's advice then there are certain goals in the Plan B or Going Dark. I think the primary one is to protect yourself from pain but it needs to take place before you have exhausted all your feelings of love. It sounds like you still have a lot of love still in your Love Bank. It is not meant to take place after you have given up. I am not suggesting you go to Plan B, I am just saying it is a Last Resort and it will make you both miss each other more. It is a risk, but it can come when you feel you have no more to risk. The thing is that you will miss him also but you will be free of the emotional impact of his decisions. Although I must say, your H does seem to show care for you he just does not know how to express himself appropriately. I mean he cried and he still calls and obviously enjoys being around you. I am not trying to give you false hope as you are dealing with a man who is actually trying to "fight for his freedom" but you have done a lot to give him something to think about. Don't push for a divorce that you do not want.

It is strange. Today I saw a couple who reminded me of you and your H at school this morning. They just looked like how I pictured your family. It made me think what do they have that we do not have? Then I thought about the numbers and statistics of affairs and separation. I guess we all at one time looked like happy families on the outside. It is high time we felt like a happy family on the inside.