Nothing new & exciting to tell.H was gone on busisness trip but managed to call every nite "to talk to the girls".b So since he says he only calls to talk to them .When I see its him I dont answer & hand the phone staright to one of the girls.
Just before he boarded the plane he called, I again gave it to the girls ,but we were all siting so close in the back of my mom's car that I could hear his everyword. The girls didnt know who's house we were going to, so H asked waht we were doing (asks them alot now) & they said they didnt knwo who's house we were at. I am sure that got him wondering. Then he asked to speak w/ me & can hear them calling to board in the backround. H sounded so sad. Said he didnt have a good feeling about this flight. As always he knows I put him in prayer before his flights,but I cant remember the last time he phoned me from the airport. Said it was prolly b/c the bad weather. I made teh call brief and said well I pray for the flight and have fun, gotta go now. He seemed like he wanted to say more as he paused awhile before saying goodbye.
The first night away he sounded jet lagged and said he was going to sleep early. After he spoke w/ the girls and asked one of them if she had slept over at her freinds(as was planned),but plans were canceld. Yeah I didnt GAL whatsoever again this weekend. BUT, I intend next weekend!!H will be in town & I will be in Orlando picking up grandad at airport & then visiting family there. My girls wanted to go see the new movie w/ the Rock-Game Plan,but they want all of us(daddy too) to see it together. I knew he was tired but when he asked to speak w/ me he wouldnt say anything. UGH! I hate the silence over the phone. I feel like we no longer have anything to talk about anymore. So asked about what all he did his first day there. Thats when the convo got going. He went to a motorcycle museum & took tons of pictures. He said how much fun it was to see the old types & so many diff. types. He was going to the Talladega race the next morning (on of his dreams). I told him to enjoy all he can.
Last night I wanted to purposefully not answer his call & since I had to charge the phone anyways(only charger in the car), I left it in the car. I missed his call,but he left a VM said he just left the race (sounded very upbeat, btw). Gave me the stats on who won 7 his fav #8 lost & the Jags won.... I decided not to call back as it 2hours since he called. I missed his call again & this time he left a text saying he called earlier, was eating now & to give his love to the girls. The girls & I were wathcing the movie The World Trade Center (again) & I put them to bed as I finished the movie & became emotional,thinking along the same lines of the movie...if H were to die in a plain crash & I were never to say ILY again.... Sometimes I want to say ILY, but I dont want to pursue.
Actually shortly after the bomb I would say or email ILY & even though he couldnt say it back he said he enjoyed hearing it. I have mix feelings of how he would take it now. I felt it was approriate before he got on the plane to say the words,but I chickened out.
