I went to my brothers wedding this past weekend, actually I was the best man, and it was just what the Dr. ordered. My sister in law is amazing, love her to death, and the way she and my brother are together is such a joy to see. I thought it might be depressing given what's been going on in my M the past couple of months but I went in positive, reminded myself this was their time not mine, and it turned out wonderfully.
They dated through college while going to separate schools 3 hours apart. No break-ups, no drama. Dated after school when my bro entered the military and was gone for a year. The unconditional love and support they have for each other is inspiring and I realized that it's what I want as well. I've been reading a Byron Katie book and she's big on detaching. I still want that love with my W but I also can't make her be what she doesn't want to be. I tried explaining this to my Dad but he kept telling me I was trying to cop out. Hopefully, you guys understand what I'm getting at. I really do want things to work and I really do love my W and I'm not changing anything I'm doing. I guess the only difference is that I know what I really want and it's not person specific and I am at peace with whatever God needs to make happen to bring it to me. I'm working on projecting as much love as I can because that is in my control, everything else is up to Him.
