just off the phone with H. he called to say good morning to the kids and we talked a few minutes after as is normal...he asked about our day, we talked costume stuff and such. I asked if he was going in to work today and he said no, he can't today, he's not in a good place/too sad (not sure if they have it off for the holiday or if he is just taking it off). I told him I sent him an e-mail to his work address and he said he'd get it tomorrow.
he then went on to apologize for the stock money, said it was never his intention to screw me out of anything, he was just trying to do what's best for us...to try to keep us in the house, me not working, etc, etc. I believe him. I do. still not signing over the pension, but I do believe what his intentions were. I told him I was sorry about how things went yesterday. he started crying saying he was so sorry for everything. I started crying saying I wish I could turn back time, and change so much, but I can't.
eventually we just said goodbye. it was a good talk, though. I feel good about it. going to stick to my low/no contact thru our anniversary rule, though. if he wants to do/say something nice on that day, I'll listen, but I need to step away for a bit. only bad will come if I keep acting as if right now. I can't do it. not cabable.
we'll see what the rest of the day brings.
Last edited by morgan; 10/08/0711:56 AM.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
