A couple of brief additions, since I just didn't write enough last time...
H said he notices the changes I'm making, "little things," and he's happy to see them, but they don't touch him. I said, "I know." Thought about adding, "They're for me," but decided he's heard that before.
H has always been the packer in the family, especially for camping trips. This was my third camping trip in two weeks, and I can put up the tent by myself now and pack the car like a pro. He packed it today, but I moved some things around. He said, "Look at you!" I told him I wanted to be able to close the cover on the trunk part and he said, "You did that on the way out?"
I've always let him do that kind of stuff, stuff I don't really like doing. Doing it myself is giving my self-confidence a disproportionate boost. I'm also learning how to use my new camera and upload pics. Feels really good.
Last: The first night of the camping trip (when H wasn't there) I had a dream that we were back together, we ML and it was great. Then the next day (in the dream) he was his usual grumpy, discontent self and I thought, "It'll always be this way."
