Now I've done it.... again #4?

[nephartiti]

Good point, MK. All I have to do is take a good look at my H. He looks like crap. He really does. It is really sad. It truly is.

Nothing really to report. I ended up going to my mom's for dinner. I feel blessed because both my parents are supporting me no matter what I decide. My father has been staying with me these last few weeks and has been here a few times when H was here. He has seen me go through a lot and could easily have turned on my H, but he has treated him with dignity and respect. Safe path home I am very grateful for this.

I have not heard from H. I am guessing I may here from him tomorrow while OW is in class. It's sad that he can't even call his kids when he is with her. That will get old fast. Funny how her space still seems like a better option than here at this point. It will be worth it if he gets to a point where he is completely done, without a doubt. Hopefully then we will have a smaler chance of relapse.

There is this fear in the back of my mind that the things he said on Friday were just to passify me because I brought up the issue. I am holding on to the recent actions on his part to make contact and the fact that, in the past, he responded with disdain and hate. I am hoping he was sincere. I believe he was, but I just don't know for sure. Of course, he could easily turn back again. Time will tell all.

"Time
thought I'd made friends with time
thought we'd be flying
maybe not this time...

...And I wonder if he's ok
If you see him say 'Hi'"