Thank you both so much. I was smacked with reality tonight and for the first time I am feeling such anger I could SCREAM. My 9 yr old called the hospital to talk with his dad. (my son is bipolar as well and really seems to do better after a conversation with his dad) When one of the patients answered the phone my son said "Can I speak with XXX XXXX he is my dad." The person said to him. It is family time and he is with his girlfriend he is not accepting calls. MY son was devastated and I am done. The cell phones went off and I am so mad right now if I never hear from him again it will be too soon. I will be writing my resume tomorrow. Pursuing a job big time and moving toward my goals. My children deserve better than the slaps in the face he is giving them.
Wednesday I have the nerve study done on my arm that he repeatedly crushed a month ago and I am hoping no permanent nerve damage has been done. I can't believe the crap I have taken in the name of love. I am so mad right now. I hate what happened to my son but in a way I think it was a sign from God that I needed to get angry and get my self together. Edie thanks for stopping by I have missed you. Thank you all for your advice. I feel like you are my family. I love you for the support you give me.
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M 32 H 39 SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4 E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06 On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again. On 08/11/07 Walked out again.
People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"
