trying, thank you for opening up and telling us what's going on. How horrible to find all of that on the computer. And the one time he told you he was sorry then turned around the next day to betray you? Been there, done that. Its awful. Just hurts so much.
And oh....I can't tell you how much I hate seeing "*67" anywhere!!! I first found that on H's phone when he was gaslighting me, and I asked him, if it is only friendship, why are you blocking your number when you call her? He stumbled and fumbled "That's how she entered it on my phone". Pathetic.
The lost trust we have all experienced makes us crazy people at times. Its such a bad place to be in, because we can drive ourselves insane with worry. That is THEIR fault, not ours, they did this to us. Yes, yes, yes, I will be the first to admit that I had a part breaking down our marriage, but never once have I betrayed H's trust. He doesn't get this, and thinks what I did prior to the A (shutting him out) is just as bad.
