Saffie and Andy, I can understand what you guys were saying about not being able to know for sure if you want this M, because basically our thoughts/feelings aren't important right now. My H has expressed his worry that he will finally be ready to work on things and that I will be the one to say "Its over." I never really answered him because I couldn't figure out a way to say that might be true, and professing my love would sound pathetic.
"I suppose I will never know until I get the opportunity of reconciling, then it will be clearer for me."
SO TRUE.
And you guys have OP that are considered lower than your average OP, but unfortunately my OP, although messed up emotionally, is much thinner and prettier than I am. Funny how, when H first met her years ago, he commented that she wasn't that pretty at all (I had told him she was). I guess its the emotional attachment that sparked the more physical attraction. H is very attractive and could have done better as well.
I, too, get disgusted at times that H opened himself up and was completely intimate with her. Right after the bomb, I couldn't look at his fingers, thinking where they had been, I could hug him thinking she had done that. Heck, I couldn't even drink from his soda. That has faded a bit, but those thoughts creep in from time to time. I suppose its the raw betrayal.
Have a good day with your D, andy. You seem to be getting along well knowing what your foolish W is doing.
