I don't know what I want, if that makes sense.....
I can only remember the great 16 years we had, and I know I am partly to blame. I don't know if I can accept what has happened. It's hard knowing that someone else has been intimate with her. Its hard knowing she picked him over me. I want to see DD every morning and every night.
One day, I think I can accept her back whilst other days, I want her to come back so I can tell her "It's too late". I hope I am doing it for the right reasons, and not just trying to get her away from OM. It's just soooo confusing.
I suppose I will never know until I get the opportunity of reconciling, then it will be clearer for me.
It's also funny that my sitch has lasted 10 months, but I feel like I have always been running out of time, and it has flown by.
