Oh boy KAW...I get cold feet just thinking about doing that!!! It's not that I am "cold" person when it comes to being intimate or maybe that is not the right word I am looking for.. I guess for over a year any advances I made I was rejected alot of them..and I am scared of that again...I am not a touchy, feely, huggy kind of person, and h was..but after 24 years I grew to like it and the past year I waited for him to make the first move...which became less and less.
Easter was good..went to h family..I sat there and thought how great it was to be in a family that cares.. and does not judge things the same way my sisters have...I got a sad feeling that I may very well lose them(the in-laws).I mentioned that I needed something fixed on water softener and h did it when he dropped me off...I used to have to ask a million times to get him to do something..and then end up doing it myself.I think I need to be more needy on litle things like that..I usually tackle any kind of repair thing I can..h was a good teacher. But h maybe felt like I really did not need him.
