Why do these things happen X - A new beginning

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Actually being back in the same residence and attempting to rebuild is in many ways a lot harder than I ever had it being separated.

I would love some more insight on this? What makes you say this? I am not disagreeing. I am just very curious as to what your are experiencing.

The hardest part in reality is seeing and feeling her emotions daily now, while living apart even though I was DB'ing I actually only got glimpses of this, if that makes since. Now living together I feel all her emotions. While we were apart after I hung up the phone or drove away, I could be pissed, worried, upset etc etc, now living together I can't, I have to just keep some of those emotions in check. while apart if she said something, it was just another part of what I thought would lead to our divorce, being here and if she says something I have to learn how to deal with it completely different. In other words I can't hang up the phone like in the past and say #$%#%^&^ out loud to myself, she is now in the same room so I actually just have to let it slide and wait for the better part of the roller coaster ride. Also along those same lines I no longer have time between discussions to think of the correct way to respond, now I have to respond immediately without rocking the boat.

Hope that makes some kind of since.