Well I left. It is what she is telling me she wants. I feel like I left for all the wrong reasons. I don't need to miss her anymore than I do. Maybe she will miss something. I am not sure what but maybe. The kids knew I may be leaving. So I went to my daughters softball game to say goodbye and I would see them soon. My wife asked if I wanted to sit down I said no. As I was leaving I sent her this message.
I just came by to say goodbye. I do not want to do this (leave home) but I do not want to be selfish. Or percieved as selfish. I feel I am doing this for all the wrong reasons. You know that. I do resent the fact that this is what you want. I am not the hero or the good guy. I am doing this because you told me to. No other reason. Goodbye (Her Name) I hope you find what you are looking for.
So today is the first day of my new life.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
