H here when I got home yesterday. Very good mood. Even a little flirty. (Wow! where did that come from? Been a very long time since he has talked to me like that.)
H's brothers came out to shoot bows. I played with the kids. H continued to hang out. Everyone left, H stayed (very rare). He started to put bean head on combine, I asked if he needed help, (he always says no). He said, "not really, I don't know", so, I helped some then left him alone to finish.
H's nephew and a couple friends came out to visit. Was getting the impression that H was hanging out for some alone time. But people wouldn't leave us alone!!. Well the longer they hung out the more H drank so I guess he decided he better get back to town before he got too drunk to drive. He left about 8pm. Nephew then left and there I sat, alone.
I wanted to call H sooooo bad! I wanted to go in there to his house. But I didn't. As I am trying to not pursue again. Let him ask me.
Well about 9pm H calls. He says: H: What you doing? M: Nothing H: Oh, thought you were going out? M: No, girls changed their mind, not going now? H: Oh, okay. Well just checking uh, well what's the girls doing. Oh, D16 is working, and N13 is at the game M: Yea, H: Well, okay, I was just checking on the girls M: okay, what are you doing H: Just sitting here watching TV, might go up to bar if I take a shower M: Well do you want some company? (couldn't help myself) H: I don't care you can come in and watch TV with me M: Just that? HaHa H: Ha Ha, yea I don't care
So I went. He was sleeping when I got there. Woke up grouchy and was kind of that way all night. But for the most part it was good. Glad I went.
I hope I am doing the right things...
Tonight I'll spend with the girls. For me and for them.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
