Feeling better with new day..it always helps to step back and think about things..if I had called h last night I might have said things that I would have regretted...I realized that I do have a controling thing...not on purpose, but for all our years I relayed something to h that he was not to have outside life..and when he said he was doing this and that in these next few weeks I nearly had a fit...but kept it inside...so I have a major thing to work on..? is how? Right now he is free to do whatever..if he comes back then I have to learn how to let him have outside stuff without falling back to the old ways.
