mk, easy to say no when he doesn't ask. lol. so I guess I didn't even get the chance to say no...or yes. in all honesty, I would have gone with them in a heartbeat, because its something I have been thinking about doing with the kids, and it ends in the next couple of weeks. so probably just as well that he didn't say anything.
lwb, thanks for thinking of me. its nice to know, somehow, that in the midst of all of this crap when I feel myself sinking into loneliness, that you all are out there thinking good thoughts and such.
yeah, sinking into it a bit today. I ran to the mall for a bit, going to swear off malls for a while. came away with only one new top..so that's one last night, one today. I'm done. I'll live with what I have, or shop online. I did do my grocery shopping on the way home, so that is done and tomorrow morning I can run to the gym...even if I have to kick myself to get me there. no excuses.
on the way to the grocery store I started breaking down a bit. just sad abou the upcoming anniversary/holidays. don't get me wrong, I know I'll be fine, I know I'll get thru it, I know every day I'm stronger and all that jazz. but I'm sad. and I miss H...I miss the man he used to be. but hey, such is life. need to focus on mine and remind myself what a great life I still have ahead of me, even if I'm alone.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
